We are coming to the end of the month. I thought I would create a monthly blog post about three things I loved about the current month and one thing I hated about this month.This can be ANYTHING from my life. It can be about TV shows I watch, music I find, or even personal things that happen to me.
Without further ado, let's hop into this list!
3 Things I Loved About May 2025
1. I loved Spotify's Angry Mix playlist it generated for me. I was feeling pretty frustrated a lot this month. From annoyances with Justin to a tarot reading client being a no-show and ghosting me completely. I found some great new music that have become a favorite, such as:
"Choke" by I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME. This song gives hating your hometown, or where you currently live, wanting to burn it to the ground, see the people who disrespect you suffocate.Watch on YouTube here.
Another song that fills me with rage (in a good way) is "Wasting My Time" by Default. This song reminds me of how much time I've wasted going back and forth to Justin and how he doesn't appreciate my time. And also, it reminds me of the client who no-showed and ghosted me. Both are clocksuckers (which is a new word I learned via Facebook, and it's a noun for people or things who waste your time in a bad way). Watch the music video here.
And lastly, I discovered "Chop Suey!" by System of a Down. This song was popular when I was in high school or college, if I remember correctly. This gets my rage out! And my emo kid is rocking! watch their music video here.
2. A client showed up and paid for a reading at Totem Books this month, and I had a lovely time there. I enjoyed cherry lemonades made by Frances. And I browsed the metaphysical section, hoping to find something that caught my eye. Nope, found nothing. There was a lot of Sylvia Browne books, but my Sylvia Browne phase was so 2005. She's a fraud. I know better now. I hope she's rotting in Hell.
3. I enjoyed the 80-degree weather we had. It was perfect for running errands and sitting outside, and just vibing with my parents while they smoked their cigarettes (and, yeah, my parents are old. They're 69 and 74 and they both still smoke! My dad is trying to quit, last I knew). We just sit under our carport and talk with each other and enjoy each other's company. Sometimes I'll ask my mom "what's for dinner?" haha.
Now...for the one thing I ABSOLUTELY HATED THIS MONTH!
It's...a tie...ladies and gentlemen, it's a tie! Between the woman who looked bitterly at me and insinuated I had shady motives for being kind to a child at Totem Books. And the client who was a no-show and ghosted me!
Both incidents made me feel embarrassed, dirty, angry, and frustrated. Anyone who has read my books, know what I've been through. And people close to me know my heart.
All I was doing was talking about Mickey Mouse Clubhouse with the little girl for pure nostalgic reasons that my niece and nephew watched the show when they were little. She then called me "her friend", like all children that are three and four year olds do when they meet friendly and kind people or kids. I know I called everyone my friend when I was a kid and was very trusting to where I almost got kidnapped outside of my grandmother's house when she was babysitting me. If it weren't for my grandma stepping outside when she did, who knows where I would be.
This woman acted like I was going to take her in the bathroom or had some other shadowy, dark motive. And the pedophilac problem in the Genesee County area is real! But seriously...that's a strong accusation to make, even if you were just insinuating or trying to protect the child. There was a better way to handle it. I felt like the woman projected her own trauma or shadow self onto me. The little girl "introduced me" to the woman as her friend. The woman then told the little girl in a defensive and protective tone, "Kids should not be friends with adults". I then reassured the woman that I was not the child's friend. And from that moment, I wanted a hole in the floor to open up and swallow me. I never felt so embarassed and so dirty for just being a kind human being to a child. Lesson learned: Never talk to children, just smile and nod.
As for my no-show client, it was the first time in my 18 years of professionally reading tarot that this has happened to me. I learned I need to just accept payment upfront and not go by the honor system. I was really relying on that money for something in my business. As a result, I got in touch with my business's soul and aligned myself. I remembered why I started my tarot business. My itention was that I never really wanted to do in-person readings. I wanted to do them occasionally and occasionally do psychic fairs, just to help get my business name out there. And I think I am going to realign myself with what I wanted to do with my business from the start — e-mail readings, texting sessions, and prerecorded YouTube readings. That's more in my heart and what I enjoy doing.
Meanwhile, I blocked the client and had a guilt trip session the next day. I probably shouldn't have been so harsh with the client and blocked her. I should have been more understanding. But my business coach and friend, Lauralyn, said it was a good thing to set the boundary in the first place and to next time, make sure they are paid in full at the time of the booking.
Overall, my rating for this month would be a 3 out of 5 stars. ⭐⭐⭐
Not a bad month entirely, but it sure felt like it sometimes! Oh well, next month will be better, hopefully?
Until next month, I'm signing off. See you next time!
