March has been a month of shifting. I am quietly searching for work as an administrative assistant or data entry specialist. I have quit Instagram on my tarot business and deleted the tarot blog. And I have even scaled back operations on my tarot business. I am no longer doing private readings and am shifting to only doing special events at Totem Books in January, February, and October. I would love to share some poetry and prose I've written over the last few months to celebrate Spring in the Northern Hemisphere.
More Than a Canvas
By: Samantha Jean Tate
I'm not someone who inspires an artist
To paint me naked on his canvas
Or a poet to write a love sonnet
Of our heartbreaks and passion.
I'm someone who says you'll be okay
After a harsh storm
Or goes out to eat pizza
And share a slice.
I'm the someone who will laugh at your jokes
And clown it up with you
Someone who will lie on your chest
Comforting you in the middle of the night.
I'm a love worth waiting for
A love to know
A love to catch
And a love that is immortal
Unlike naked bodies
That will wither away with age
Or a beautiful face
That gets wrinkles at 50.
I am a love that deserves to be protected,
To be cherished,
And held in your arms.
I'm Gone
By: Samantha Jean Tate
Dying for love.
The music played louder,
The messages were clear.
But not just any love.
Your love.
Your love kept me going.
And now that it's gone,
I'm gone.
Burn
By: Samantha Jean Tate
Friend: "What structures are you most ready to burn down next with this fierce energy you're embodying?"
My response:
"A woman must submit and obey her husband."
Nope, not me.
"A woman must be nurturing, kind, and soft."
Hell no.
"A woman's place is in the kitchen."
FUCK NO.
"A woman cannot lead."
FUCK TO THE HELL NO!
Tate
By: Samantha Jean Tate
I really lovedislike my name
Samantha Jean Tate.
She's the one who's unstable
She'll cancel last minute,
She'll quit a job she doesn't like,
She cries at the drop of a hat
In short,
SHE'S A MESS!
I really lovelike my name
Samantha Jean Tate.
She stands up for what is right,
She's resilient as hell,
She comes from a long line of fighters
In short,
SHE'S DEFIANT!
I really love my name
Samantha Jean Tate
She's complex,
She's a paradox,
She backtracks a lot
But hey,
Who's perfect?
In short,
SHE'S ME!
These Cards
By: Samantha Jean Tate
These cards have told many stories,
many fortunes,
many truths,
many lies.
Creases from shuffling
In various hands.
Figuring out their purpose
or if he will call again.
These cards fed me,
nurtured me,
taught me lessons
about me
about others
about love
about life
about death
and sad goodbyes.
These cards hold many secrets,
especially mine,
which will be taken
to the grave after peaceful slumber.
These cards will return to dust,
along with my body,
mind,
and soul.